Dear Molly

Tuesday, 1 November 2011

Dear Molly

Dear Molly,
I can not believe that you are already 3 weeks old today. The saying that "time flys" has got to be the truest saying ever said.
This is how things are for you. well the day you were born was a great day and a great date because I was asking god for you to be born on a datye that I would remember because when I am filling out all your boarding passes franticall I hate having to stop and think about birth dates. I just makes me feel like a bad Mum. So Your due date was the 5.10.11 which would have been a great date as you would have shared it with your big brothers best mate Tom Hannon in Raglan. But NO one in the whole wide world thought you were going to hang in there that long as you were showing signs of coming for about a month before your due date and in the end we all just gave up guessing. You were teasing us!! I thought the 1.10.11 would have been a good day but .. NO, you OBVIOUSLY didn't. then the next good date was the 5th then It was the 9.10.11, that came and went fairly uneventfully even though I was TRYING SO HARD I even walked around Royal perth show for hours.. and still no action! What were you doing in there that was so important for goodness sake!!? Then the 10.10.11 (which was my Nana Fultons birthday) or the last good date it could have been was the 11.10.11 and YAh thankfully you thought that was a good day too! SO about 4 am you started to let us know that today was the day. 4 am is very early Molly, you could have waited a couple of hours more before you woke me up! I am infact still trying to make up that lost sleep! But seem to be slipping further and further away, into sleep deprivation rather than sleep banking!
SO you arrived... just in time for lunch ( nice one!) at 1239 in the pool. We had a water birth which was as good as it gets for a birth. You were a god healthy size weighing in at 9lb5 or 4kgs (more or less) and 56cm   ( lets hope you've got your dads height.)
Your Dad cut the cord and you were FREE! . Your Nanny and Poppy were up in a shot with Your brother Mathieson, your sister Alice ( who I think you look like) and your other sister Jaimie. Who were all sooo excited to se you and had already named you Molly.
I tried to call you all sorts of other things like Lola I REALLY love that name. Anaiah I love too and I did manage to squeeze that in for your middle name. that took a while though because I had to ask a friend of mine if she didn't mind if I used it because she has a daughter called Anaiah and it hold special meaning for her.. AS it also does for us. It means "God Answers".
Now, When dad took your brother and sisters home, they called into McDonalds for dinner and he got a call from this company who Dad has been wanting to get work from for a YEAR or more. SO they called up and said come Friday! ( you were born on a Tuesday) SO that was so exciting! So you and I were in hospital 2 nights and you screamed the WHOLE time you were STARVING I thought I was going to have a mental break down! I thought there was something wrong wit you but you were just hungry.. I understand that! But through all that, it is amazing how much love I still felt for you and I still thought you were the most beautiful thing I had ever laid eyes upon.You are just perfect.
 We  came home from the hospital on Thursday afternoon and by Friday morning 5.30 He was gone.. for a month! and he is till away. He should be back in about 12 days or so. he is missing you so much, although I think secretly he is enjoying a  months worth of unbroken sleep!
You are lucky to have such a great Dad who loves you so much and will take such great care of you growing up, you will have so much fun with him. He couldn't stop looking at you when you were born. Every time he calls up from the boat he is living on, the first thing he always asks is "how is Molly?" You are going to be so big by the time he sees you again.
Your Nanny and Poppy were here for the 1st 2 weeks of your life doting on you loving you and not being able to get enough of you. They were so sad to have to leave you and MAt, ALi and Jaimie as well, and me.
The first day after we got home, we went to a womans conference which was GREAT! That was friday night and saturday. then I think we were out every day that week. You went to toddler jam Then i got mastitis and was quite sick. Thankfully Nany was there to look after us! Mattie had tonsilitis as well.Then the day after nany and Poppy went home I got tonsilitis and fevers and  sick allover again so I have a diet of Amoxyl ( I am taking probiotics as well though to be kind to you!) difflam and panadol for the fevers! I am still recovering! Atleast the razor blades in my throat are blunt now!!
You are a great eater and sleeper. You are proving to be a great baby. Not to mention super cute ( although you were attacked my mozzys the other night which isn't such a great look but the bites are going way now)
I could just eat you up! MAt Ali and James just want to hold you all the time. Jaimie holds you for a second and then she would just drop you. SO It is very important that I am also holding you!! You LOVE being held and you are very easy to calm down if you get upset. I just love you so much. You are such a welcome and important member of our family and I just can't wait to get to know you more and more. But you are my baby so don't grow up too fast!

I love you and so does your Dad and Mat and Ali and James  from your mama xx

We made it!!

We made it!!

Well here I am on the otherside of child birth, and all  can say is "Thank goodness that is over and I never have to do it again." I am definitely not one of those mother earth types that thinks birthing is a beautiful thing. I can think of tonnes of adjectives to describe giving birth but beautiful would definitely NOT be one!
I did have a water birth which was a good option. I was whaling around in the bath secretly cursing and blaming all this pain on Eve. If she had not eaten that apple I would be having none of this knife stabbing pain. "its all her fault!!!"  I think Dean was thinking he was pretty lucky to be escaping any abuse and was happy to load it all up on poor old Eve!
The whole ordeal I will call it went for 8 hours from the first contraction to the birth.Unfortunalty we are a bit ripped off in this area because they actually only count " labour" from when it is " established"  Which effectively is when the contractions are on top of each other and you just want to die! Which for me, would count as 4 hours. I mean to say.. its' not like the first 4 hours weren't bad enough. I spent them bent over in the shower wanting to vomit the pain was so bad.. but OH NO we don';t count that!!!, That's not what you'd call exactly fun is it? So that;s why I think it must have been a man who made up these rules because if it was a Man GIVING birth they would be counted from the onset to get the full impact. I mean come ON look at how they behave when they have touch of a cold, you would think they were on their death bed.Or when they catch a fish.. we get EVERY minute detail about how BIG it was SO imagine them in child birth, they would DEFINITELY be documenting labour from the first contraction!   Now don't get me wrong I love men and I definitively am not a feminist but I do have to think that they made up these " it doesn't count unless its established labour' rules. But if they were  made up by woman ... we are not very kind to ourselves are we?!
 I mean crikey if the birth alone is not bad enough then we have to have after pains! What is all that about! It's not like we are going to forget in a hurry the trauma we've just been through. But I guess just incase we do manage to block it from our memory we are forced, through the after pains to remember it for a week or more afterwards. Did Eve eat the apple AND the core or something!
SO I gave birth to the most beautiful baby girl which was a shock in itself because I would have put a BET on down at the TAB on it being a boy as it was EXACTLY the same pregnancy as with Mattie and so different to the other 2 girls. Anyway good thing I am a procrastinator and never made that bet, because I would have lost all my money! She was the size of a good boy. at 9lb5  56 cm and born at 1239 to be exact on the 11.10.11. Fully stoked on that easy to remember date! Thankyou GOD! Her name is Molly Anaiah.
SO Alice wanted to know if I was having another baby because I still had my big tummy! Hmm well thanks alot Alice. That unfortunately is another RIP off about having a baby. ONE would expect to be able to walk out of hospital in a pair of non preggy jeans? Right? well some can, but for most of us... but NO NO NO Not a chance.. infact those preggy clothes will be the only things that will fit for about the next 2, ok, lets be real here we'll make that 5 years, while I get round to doing something about  getting rid of that spare tyre the baby has gifted me! Well as it turns out Alice the 4 yr old wasn't the only one who was confused. On my first public outting, there were quite a few who commented on the fact that I" STILL hadn't had that baby"!! Does wonders for one's self image!
Anyway she is proving to be a good baby which is good as we are 13 days in to it. I don't know where the time has gone!
Alice suggested that I would have to cut off my boobies and give them to someone else to put on so they can feed the baby while I am.... I'm not sure what she thought I would be doing, but it obviously wasn't shopping of a new size 10 wardrobe that's for sure!!
Deano scored it. He got he call up to go away the day she was born. SO I got home from the hospital on Thursday afternoon (after 2 nights in) and by Friday 5.30 the next morning, he was GONE for a month! So he is thinking he is pretty lucky to have scored himself a months worth of full nights sleep. Feels like he has been gone for EVER but is only been a week! GROAN!
Oh well atleast we won the Rugby world cup! That would have been almost worse than child birth if we had lost that AGAIN!

Glad to be on the otherside of  the baby and the world cup. BIG sighs of relief on both counts. All is looking pretty good from here on in!

Lots of love from Lanzie land x

3 days over due

3 days over due

I was packing my bags for the hospital yesterday and feeling really good about being so organised, patting myself on the back and generally feeling like a legend when Mum reminded me that ..I was infact 3 days over due! Nothing like a bite of reality to keep ones feet on the ground!
I think this baby is enjoying the benefits of my self indulgent attitude while pregnant. It is LOVING the caramel slice that Mum has got me addicted to, and all the other foods that I would normally deprived myself of  like the potato chips that keep automatically keep finding their way onto my mouth with out me even noticing? So why would you want  to come out if you had that to eat all the time? Because I have all the best intentions to start eating responsibly once the baby is here!( as I always do, but the reality is that I don't usually get round to doing anything about it until about 10 months!) So actually it suits me for this baby to hang out as long as it wants, giving me the licence to indulge myself till my hearts content as I only seem to notice the piled on kgs once the baby is out! Mean while I will continue to lap up all the compliments flying my way about how great I am looking.It's the time in my life, 7-9 months pregnant, that people will stop and tell me how great I look. SO for about 2-3 months 4 times in my life I look great! SO I love being pregnant!! I wonder if I could push the boundary with the husband and get ONE more child!!!!! Just 1 more?

The rugby world cup  is on at the moment and Wales have just beaten Ireland in the quarter final. Ireland were the favourites, So an exciting game. But I have strict instructions for the baby not to be born until atleast tomorrow after the All blacks have played Argentina. So I am guess this baby will grace us with its presence for atleast the semi finals of the rugby world cup!

Due Date

Due date

Here we are 4.15 am wide awake.. and not by the labour pains that are due to kick off today or even by the 4 yr old scratching her skin like an old sea dog,  thanks to excema, but by a 2 yr old who has had a nightmare. I cuddle up next to her and she reminds me that I have a baby in my tummy, and asks "when it is going to come out?" I ask her if she thinks it will be today and she says "yes" and that "it will be a girl," and we will call it "girl" She is clearly extreamely creative and imaginitive !!
It is a special day today. It is my sons best mate back in NZ's b'day today he is 7. A bit bummed not to be there I thought that him and his buddies would all grow up together, but here we are, in an unexpected twist.. in WA we have been here for just over 1 year. So it would be nice to have this baby share this date with Tom Hannon in Raglan, home of the longest left hand surf break and lots of my amazing beautiful friends who I miss so much. On the other hand it would be good to have the date 9/10/11 or the 10/10/11 or even the 11/10/11, I am going for easy to remember dates as I hard enough time remembering the dates of the 3 kids I have already!
However at the moment Mattie ( the 6 yr old) has got the man flu and is vomiting with high fevers, and I have a skin specialist appt for Alice's (4 yr old) excema today so I'm a bit busy to have a baby today anyway!
We will see!

Im doing it! I am Blogging!

Since moving to Australia I have hooked up with these awesome woman, who really, are quite intimidating with all their skills and cleverness, but at the same time they are really encouraging and inspiring... SO it is because of them and their encouragement that I am here.. I have become one of THEM... a blogger and a sewer... OK well I shouldn't really claim the sewer part just yet, as I have only just sewed a few ( not so straight lines) to resemble a skirt for my 2 year old. but I am going to keep going and make a few more and hopefully soon I will know what I am really doing!
This blogging and sewing is also a desperate bid to keep myself occupied and my mind off the pending birth of my 4th child which is due tomorrow! I have got a 2 yr old (girl) a 4 yr old (girl) and a 6 yr old (boy) and it is kind of true that you DO forget about the AWFUL pains of birthing.. until they come back to haunt you in the form of Braxton Hicks and then you remember only too vividly exactly what it's like and what is coming to you any day now! Every day for the last week or too, I have gone to bed SURE that this is going to be it, I'm up in the night wide awake nursing my aching back, only to go back to bed and waking up in the morning... still intact! If this is a way to get me use to getting up in the night again.. I don't need it thanks very much. I have a 4 yr old who still hasn't really ever slept through the night, so the night and I are well acquainted! It is her that I will blame for my grey hair and wrinkles! I hope she will be rich one day because she will be paying for a face lift before I am 50!
I really thought that there is NO WAY that I would make it this far in my pregnancy. I had to "slow down"at 28 weeks as I thought it was all going to happen then... then I thought Id have it about 3 weeks early and every day since then... My Mum has arrived from NZ, Toe nails are painted, (No bikini wax this time though) baby shower had, photos taken, All blacks on wining streak in Rugby world cup (even though Daniel Carter is out with a groin injury... BOO!! but that's a whole different subject) husband is home, and we have made it to the 10th month which was a big criteria for me as I have a baby in the 9th month already and I hate doing kids birthdays with a passion so the more spread out they are the better. SO you could say that we are good to go!
My husband knows what we are having but I have no interest in the sex as I realise that we are just so lucky to have a well baby with no complications and that it something that we can't take for granted, so the sex really is secondary. Plus it is good to have a surprise after all that awfulness of labour! SO watch this space!!

Well there is it my first blog and my first skirt today... finished!  Onwards and upwards for me I have entered into a whole new world!!
over and out x